it's a very strange feeling, weird... i'm kinda frustrated >.<
and the cause is the russian laruku fandom >< or maybe not only russian ><
first of all i wanna say that
healthy fangerlism is not bad! no, sometimes it's good ^^ but not all the time, ne?
can somebody explain me is there any point in discussions like "did hyde do plastic surgery or he didn't do it"? is it very interesting\helpful\useful to discuss?
and is it normal for a fan ONLY to drool on his pics? (ok, ok, not only haido... sakura, ken, tetsu, yukkie) and always scream in comments smth like "haido kawaiiiiiiiiiiiiii!"
wanna scream back "he is not kawai HE IS A MUSICIAN!!! AND THEY ALL MAKE A GREAT MUSIC!!!"
but maybe it's ok and the strangiest person is me? me, who admires laruku family, me who
almost cries while whatching concerts, me who feels sooooo excited while listening to their music... and me who just feels...
sometimes i'm so lonely... in moments when almost nobody can understand me T^T
only few persons can, but they are far away from me... and not in russia, hahahahaha!
i've been thinking for several days and now i'm very close to the desision of deleting my russian laruku forum... its existence is pointless..
ah, nevermind! it's just my fan-feelings sharpened ^^
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